The Disadvantage Of Spending…

You’re thinking of saving every penny for a rainy day, but there goes the temptation of going out just to shop or travel, and end up spending more than you can save. Isn’t that kind of frustrating?


These days, I tend to spend a lot of money on my city trips, as well as some useful and not-so-useful stuff. Oh well, there’s always a good reason to spend a lot of money on something you love or desire, but then you might go broke if you don’t know how to control your spending habits. I wish I could save more than I can spend, but… I still end up doing the opposite. I guess I’ll never learn, then.

A person’s spending habits depend on his/her personality. For instance, a certified otaku might end up spending a lot of money on anime DVDs or subscription services (cable or online streaming), manga books, and some anime merch such as anime T-shirts or stuffed plushies. A well-groomed person might spend a lot of money on some nice clothes and stylish haircuts. Sometimes, what you’re actually spending on reflects your lifestyle, and not just plain obsession or vanity.

There’s no stopping to your spending habits, as long as you still have a lot of things you wanted to try or have. Of course, you’re working hard just to earn enough money just for that purpose, but sometimes this may not be enough to cover such expenses. Also, there are some things you need to prioritize first such as your basic expenses and bill payments, and they’re taking most of your salary leaving you with just enough or little money to finance your spending habits. Oh wait, there’s also setting aside a significant portion of your salary for your savings, in case of emergencies.

Come to think of it, it’s really difficult to decide whether you want to spend some money on something you like or not. We always tend to live by the saying “buy it now or regret it later”, something that compels you to buy something even if you won’t be using it for now. This kind of mentality is getting real prevalent, especially for shopaholics.


So what are the disadvantages of overspending?

  • Some people tend to buy more than what they actually need. Even if one is enough, they’ll just buy two or more of the same item, just to stock up on those.
  • Some people are attracted to cute and collectible items, especially if it’s rare or limited edition. They’d probably want to have a hand on these items before someone else buys it.
  • Some people don’t know how to stick to their plan and budget their expenses and ended up spending a lot of money on unplanned purchases and unnecessary luxuries.
  • For people who use credit cards, there’s the uncontrollable urge to swipe the card often just to get what they want. They just don’t realize that interest rates aren’t really that friendly, financially speaking.
  • For people who stick to cash, there’s the feeling of running out of cash after a shopping spree, and the inconvenience of having to budget the rest of what’s left of your cash for food or transportation expenses.
  • There’s a possibility of a cost-cutting measure after spending more than you actually need. It really sucks when your next payday is just a long way ahead.
  • There’s the feeling of regret in case of a bad investment.
  • There’s the feeling of anxiety while buying expensive items, especially clothing and electronics.


Let’s face it, our spending habits can be quite unpredictable, especially when we’re in the mood for shopping or going out. But that is something we can control. All it takes is the will to practice self-restraint.

My advice? Nothing beats the practice of sticking to the shopping list and buying only what is needed. But more importantly, make sure that you don’t spend more than you can afford.


Pretty Normal… Not!

I always keep describing myself as weird, eccentric, unusual, or strange… but certainly not to the point that I become a creep that everyone avoids. It’s true that my eccentric (and strange) behavior is sometimes making you feel uncomfortable, but I just couldn’t help it at times.

Well, as you can see, I was trying to be a normal person, but I’m struggling to lure myself out of this situation. Just what am I supposed to do with my strange behavior(s) anyway?


Being unusual isn’t just limited to a person’s behavior, sometimes it also involves their preferences and habits. My choice of music, TV shows, books, food, fashion… and sometimes my fascination with darkness and anything weird (but cool) are some of the things that differs me from the rest. So does that make me a weird person? Probably. But since I consider myself a weird person, I guess you can say that I’m not like the others. It’s just that I have my own preferences. As for my habits, it’s mostly a matter of being an OC.

But let’s focus on strange behavior and being weird, as these are the topics for this post. For starters, being normal is being consistent with the most common behavior for a person.^ Although its definition varies by person, time, place, and situation, it does have a specific standard to determine what is normal and what is not. Through time, the definition changes along with changing societal standards and norms.^

Being weird, however, is just the opposite of being normal. It just shows how you tend to exhibit such mannerisms, as well as having such unusual obsessions, hobbies, and/or rituals that others might wonder what was going on with you. For some people, it’s the socially acceptable behavior that matters, something that they’re expecting you to have.


So here are some facts about me that are perceived as weird or unusual by others:

  • My movements are pretty awkward. I don’t know, but I always tend to observe my surroundings while walking instead of walking without looking around. I don’t know if they noticed, but some people might think that I’m a pretty awkward person with some kind of mannerism.
  • Prior to wearing glasses, I had a hard time seeing things. So I often resort to squinting my eye just to see anything out of my blurred vision, much to my mom’s annoyance.
  • I always had this habit of pushing up my glasses, usually on the bridge part using my index finger. I do this even though it doesn’t even slide down my nose or when I’m not wearing them. And when I need to take a closer look at something, especially while reading a book, looking at the photos, or surfing the net, I have to take off my glasses and peer closely on the book/magazine, picture, or the LCD screen in order to see clearly.
  • I had this habit of rubbing a [smooth] cloth between my two fingers. It could be a shirt, a handkerchief, or a pillowcase. I often do this most of the time, just to relax or when I’m bored… and at times, just to fall asleep.
  • Back then, I always make sure to sleep on the same pillow that I slept on for more than a decade, or else I won’t be able to sleep. Even though it’s a little lumpy, I still find it more comfortable to sleep on. I eventually bought about four new pillows (two of which I actually slept on) and kept the old ones so I still have something to drool on.
  • I tend to skip or leap around the house during an LSS (last song syndrome) moment or just to fuel my creative imagination. Of course, I always make sure that no one is there to see me doing that.
  • Listening to the same song on loop, for about an hour or so. Maybe I loved the song so much that I need to play it over and over again until I got tired of it or switch to another song.
  • I tend to double check things, just to make sure that everything’s okay. I actually mentioned this back when I introduced myself to one of the instructors, and he told me that I might be OC. I always believe that it’s normal for someone to double check everything just to be safe, but I think I might be overdoing it at times.
  • Whenever I go out, I tend to mumble to myself like I was talking to a person. Oh well, it must be lonely spending time with no one but myself.
  • I tend to stutter at times when I need to say something. Obviously, I’m not good at making conversations with others.
  • My obsessions in life are the things that keep me inspired. And one of them is checking some random people’s profile for some pictures of themselves. Come to think of it, I always check some of my friend’s pictures on Facebook from time to time (especially My Awesome Classmate’s photos) and that gave me a surge of excitement and inspiration. It does look like I’m spying on them, but actually, I was drawn to their cute faces, especially when they look asleep (in the photo, I mean).
  • I always wash my hands and feet before a meal, and before going to bed.
  • My extreme shyness and fear of humiliation make it difficult for me to face the challenges of the real world. If I have to ask someone or walk into an office just to inquire about something, I have to make sure I’m doing the right thing and I’m asking the right person. Otherwise, I’m gonna suffer from extreme humiliation and it will take at least a few hours for me to recover.


Well, being unusual and weird is something to be proud of, or to be concerned about. Yes, it pays to be normal, but there’s always a reason to be drawn to such strange behavior.

Yes, I keep describing myself as weird, eccentric, unusual, or strange. But at least I’m not trying to be a creep. I just hope I wouldn’t end up like that in the end.

A Certain Wish List

It’s that time of the year once again! Of course, we’re all looking forward to another Christmas celebration… and perhaps, the holiday exchange gifts too.

That aside, we all have our wish lists, and it’s not just material things or anything like that. Sometimes, we wish for a better life, a better future, a happy family, and a peaceful world. It doesn’t have to be grand or expensive, but it should be meaningful… always meaningful.


A wish list is a list of something you desired in life and it can either be a material thing or not. In making a wish list, however, there are some things that you can’t just ask, like a huge amount of money or something impossible (like reviving a dead pet).

The goal of a wish list is to facilitate communication between the gift receiver and the gift giver.^ If a gift receiver (a recipient) wished for something in particular, then the gift giver (who also acts as a gift purchaser) will either purchase the goods the would-be recipient wants or may serve as an instrument in fulfilling someone’s wish to reunite with a friend, family or relatives, or finding someone to help him land a job or finish schooling through a sponsorship.

Birthdays, weddings, anniversaries, Christmas, housewarmings and charity events may also have a wish list that would also serve as a guide for gift givers to give the necessary item that a group or an individual desire. Along with the gift is a message from the gift givers to their recipient(s).


I never had a wish list before, but I knew the feeling when you start listing down all the things you wanted to receive. The joy of waiting for someone to give you the particular item you need, as well as receiving, it is absolutely priceless. The smile on your face shows how much you really appreciated the item that you longed to have. It’s like a dream come true for the recipient.

Whether it’s for a personal reason or a charitable cause, the aim of a wish list is to make someone happy. I’m pretty sure some of you are wishing for material things, but there are some non-material things that you can include on your wish list, including love, peace, and joy to everyone. Of course, always remember to show some gratitude to the people who make things possible for you and/or for others. This will surely make them feel more rewarded and happy.

The Thoughts Of A Person

Ah, the moment you think of someone, it’s like you’re actually spending time with that person, even enjoying some great moments together… only, it’s in your head. Well, isn’t that a shame? But then, your imagination must have taken you to greater heights, thanks to your creative way of thinking.

There are a lot of things you want to express. But of course, to speak your mind is to reveal your thoughts to someone.


A thought refers to ideas or arrangements of ideas that are the result of the process of thinking.^ We tend to interpret a lot of things that come to our mind, and some of them proved to be crucial in producing ideas and making decisions. So what you’re thinking right now may give you some ideas on what you want to do next, whether it’s making a cheesecake or planning a memorable vacation.

Apparently, I was thinking about various stuff, from romantic thoughts to dark and depressing thoughts. It’s a matter of fantasy and reflection. Maybe I was having some weird thoughts too since I tend to act weird at times. So that means, I have a lot of ideas in mind, mostly produced by my imagination.

I generally let my mind wander as a way of gathering ideas. But at times, my mind tends to wander too much that I wasn’t paying too much attention to where I was heading. Oh well, I do this all the time, as long as I don’t bump into someone.

There are some thoughts that I can’t just share with anyone, partly due to the fact that it may be embarrassing to some people, including myself. Of course, a hidden thought is considered a secret that you can’t always reveal to anybody. I’m pretty sure that there are some people who wanted to know what’s inside a person’s mind. Well, too bad for them. It’s just that there are some people who are generally cryptic about their thoughts, making it difficult for others to read their minds.

In the end, our thoughts can be really helpful in making decisions, making a judgment, and expressing oneself without the need for a talk. Our mind is working hard to produce a wonderful idea necessary to keep ourselves creative and productive, as well as to help us decide what our ideal future will be, regardless of the consequence of your actions. Your way of thinking defines who you really are.


So here I was, thinking about…

  • Me and my classmate in high school, spending some quality time together. I imagine him as my awesome best friend, though we didn’t actually hang out often in real life. Sometimes, I imagine seeing him in his pajamas and either having a nice conversation with me in the living room or watching him sleeping. I really wanted to make a story out of it, I think that would be cute. Just a bonus, I nearly had a chance encounter back in May 2016, only he didn’t notice me passing by (as he was talking to someone that time).
  • Some imaginary scenes from a series non-existent anime series and my future stories while listening to music. My creative thinking sure takes me to even greater heights, but sometimes I feel kind of frustrated at the thought of it not existing (in the case of made-up anime series), or being unable to turn the thought into a draft (in the case of the stories I’m writing).
  • Me in a variety of outfits, visiting a lot of places, and collecting and buying various stuff. I was feeling kind of ambitious, but it can be frustrating at times since I don’t have a job and I don’t actually earn from blogging so that’s all I can do for now. Well, I was trying to, but with the money that I saved up from the bi-weekly allowance.
  • My impression about the places I wanted to visit and the food I wanted to try out. I assume that they’re more than just exciting, but it’s also heavenly… okay, sometimes I tend to exaggerate on this one.
  • Judging others based on their attitude. There are times when I feel like saying something mean to a person for being rude and inconsiderate. Of course, that includes my dad (whom I’m constantly at odds with), and my classmates from fourth-year high school (the people who deserved to be cursed to hell).
  • Having suicidal thoughts. Sometimes, I just couldn’t help thinking about killing myself at times, mainly because I’m only causing problems for everyone and I’m feeling cynical at the thought of others ditching me as a friend, thus becoming a loner. I simply shake my head of those thoughts and try to move on.
  • Having a series of dark thoughts, but mostly related to the stories I’m planning to write and/or currently writing right now. Some of them are too gruesome to mention.
  • My future. I don’t want to imagine what I’ll end up to be as this can make me feel depressed. Same thing with death…

If these thoughts are what I’m thinking right now, then at least I’m being honest about myself. I already shared what’s on my mind, even though some of these can be quite embarrassing for some of us, and may even cause some concern for others.


Your thoughts are like a book, always full of imagination and reflection. One moment, you’re thinking of good thoughts. In another, you’re thinking of negative thoughts. I’m sure these thoughts are meant to be expressed, though it doesn’t always have to be direct. All you have to do is walk or sit down and think, think, and think.

Right now, there are a lot of reasons why I come up with some exciting, embarrassing, or depressing thoughts. Of course, it depends on the situation I’m in right now. The mind is such a wonderful thing to have, don’t you agree?

My Future [E]

“You realize that our mistrust of the future makes it hard to give up the past.”

Chuck Palahniuk, Survivor

I just keep repeating myself over and over, but I couldn’t help it. Maybe this should serve as a constant reminder (to myself) that no matter what happens, life goes on…

I hate myself. Sometimes, I believe that my life isn’t really meaningful at all. My existence is nothing but a joke. I don’t know, but my pessimism remains strong as ever, and it will take a lot of effort for anyone to talk me out of this negativity.


Since graduating from college more than five years ago, I didn’t have a clear plan for what my future will look like. When I applied as a customer service representative for a call center company at a job fair four years ago, I was asked what my life would be like after five years. I told him that I’d still be working at the call center company, probably focusing on my stressful job and earning a lot of money, just to catch up with some of my friends and classmates who already started their jobs as soon as they graduated. Apparently, I had no idea what he was asking about, so I just answered the question, plain and simple. He asked me if I was really sure about my answer. Maybe he meant that by then, I should have done something meaningful, other than simply focusing on my job and earning money. Perhaps, he was asking about my future goals in life, which makes sense since we’re all expected to have our own goals in life aside from working and earning money.

Life can be pretty scary, to be honest. I don’t know how to deal with people, even though I already had a brief stint at a call center company a few years ago that requires me to talk to a lot of customers. Sometimes, I don’t feel like seeing people, but I need to go out every once in a while. I’m slowly turning into a recluse, probably a hikikomori. I don’t know. It’s kind of depressing to be sitting in front of a computer surfing the net and checking my social media accounts all the time. The feeling of insecurity upon seeing others succeed just makes my depressing life even worse.

So what’s my future like? For me, it’s just a plain and boring one, without a job and without support from my friends. I never get to experience a lot of things, and I’ll never will. I feel like I’m going to be a loner for the rest of my life. I don’t even have a love life. Heck, I don’t know if I can stand being with a crowd. And my communication skills are so poor that it’s impossible for me to interact with anyone.


I just keep repeating myself over and over again, but I couldn’t help it. I have a lot of plans for my future, but these will remain on the drawing board unless I have the courage to work on it.

I’m planning to catch up with some of my friends once I have a new job, but I’m not keen on hanging out with them. I mean, I was rejected by my peers back in elementary, and I became a loner during high school and college.

I’m planning to have my own collection of anime figures, and I’ll keep expanding my manga collection. Of course, I’ll start attending otaku events and book fairs, and maybe a jazz festival, if there will be one.

I want to live in a nice house, minimalist style. I want to see shades of black and gray, as well as red and blue. And a lot of cabinets too. I fancy those tall upholstered chairs, these will look nice in a dining room area, but exclusively for the head of the house.

I’m ditching the idea of a marriage. Yup, I’m not planning to get married. Even if you try to convince me to find a suitable partner, I won’t do it. After witnessing the horrors of my parent’s marriage, I’m closing the doors on marriage due to the fear of becoming a violent parent and the thought of my children hating me for being a bad parent. It’s hard to be the son of a dysfunctional dad.

Being single for a long time and not having a family of my own, I might as well accept the fact that one day I’ll end up in a nursing home, all alone and wishing for death. I hope I wouldn’t end up like that, it’s not too late to reconsider.

I wanted to do all the things I want before I turn 30. There are a lot of things waiting for me to experience. Anyway, this is all about traveling to different places, writing stories, visiting various events (especially otaku events and book fairs), watching a lot of anime shows, wearing unusual but fashionable outfits, joining contests, and dining out with no one but myself. Of course, I won’t oblige myself to fulfill every one of those activities, since that may be too much for me, considering the struggles of a hectic work schedule.


If I decided that I haven’t done something meaningful in my life, then it’s all over. I don’t know what to do next, but rest assured that I’m not ditching the possibility of living my life to the fullest… but there’s no guarantee if I can ever live a life without regrets.

Well, that’s how it is. But then again, it’s not a bad idea to shook your head and change plans, especially if it’s for the better. After all, we only live once so it’s best to make the most out of the remaining years of your life. Just make sure to try doing something meaningful to yourself and to others.

The Dangers Of Anxiety [E]

There are times when I tend to worry about serious stuff, mainly personal. It makes my life difficult. Just thinking about my problems in life make me feel nervous and demotivated, at times depressed. It’s as if something’s torturing my mind with some kind of emotional stress that would make my life miserable.

Yes, I’ve been experiencing this from time to time, especially when things go unexpectedly wrong. I hate it when some problems disrupt my normal, peaceful life, and it’s stressing me out. I feel like I’m being challenged by giving me a reason to worry and behave apprehensively. Like I always believe that something terrible happens for a bad reason.

Just what is this feeling I’m experiencing right now, something that can make my life so unpleasantly difficult?


What is anxiety? And how is it dangerous to a person’s well-being?

Anxiety is a physiological, psychological, and emotional state that results when we behave apprehensively (worry that something bad or harmful may happen). Behaving apprehensively stresses the body, and a body that becomes overly stressed can become symptomatic. We call them anxiety symptoms because behaving overly apprehensively is the main source of the stress that causes the body to exhibit symptoms.^

Anxiety happens when people think too much about their problems. While anxiety in itself isn’t harmful and can be normal for some people, the stress it creates may be dangerous and often leads to depression.

There are different types of anxiety:^

  • General Anxiety Disorder – it is excessive anxiety for no apparent reason.
  • Social Anxiety Disorder – it is characterized by a fear of being criticized or humiliated by others, something that can lower their self-esteem and makes it difficult for those who have it to gain self-confidence.
  • Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder – a form of anxiety disorder developed after witnessing and experiencing something traumatic, such as an accident or a heinous crime.
  • Obsessive Compulsive Disorder – it is characterized by a desire to perform a particular ritual over and over, usually habitual.
  • Phobias – it is a powerful urge to avoid certain objects or events.
  • Panic Disorders – it is a panic attack often associated with anxiety, terror, or impending doom. A person having panic disorders may experience such physical symptoms such as heart palpitations, shortness of breath, or chest pain.

Possible symptoms of an anxiety disorder include the following:^

  • Changes in behavior
  • Panic attacks
  • Sense of danger or doom
  • Weakness
  • Trouble sleeping
  • Nervousness, restlessness
  • Irritability
  • Palpitations
  • Shortness of breath
  • Excessive perspiration
  • Chest pain

Possible signs to look out may include:^

  • Emotional and physical health issues
  • Social withdrawal
  • Depression and suicidal thoughts
  • Poor performance at school or work
  • Family or relationship problems
  • Alcohol or substance abuse
  • Repetitive behaviors
  • Fear of a certain thing or situation

It’s important to address the cause of your anxiety so it doesn’t impact your health negatively. Successfully addressing your anxiety can help you go back to your normal, relaxed, and positively healthy life. It’s also best to seek professional help, especially when you’re on the verge of breaking down. Medication, cognitive therapy, and behavioral therapy are some of the treatments a person with anxiety needs in order to get his/her life back on track.


We all experience anxiety, it’s part of our life. But too much of it can be dangerous to our emotional well-being.

Take a deep breath, relax, and try to figure out the cause of your anxiety as much as possible. If you’re feeling anxious about something, remember that there’s always a way out of this misery. Don’t let it affect you, your life, and the people closest to you. Always seek help if necessary.

Night Shift

This post tells much about my brief stint as a call center agent (still in training) in Makati, but I also include some basic information about working the night shift and its pros and cons.

The struggle of having to work at night is real. It’s more than just trying to keep yourself awake and drinking coffee to combat sleepiness, as well as dealing with a lot of stress and some dangers. Welcome to the night shift, also known as the graveyard shift, the nightly equivalent of a typical day job.


Shift work is an employment practice designed to make use of, or provide service across, all 24 hours of the clock each day of the week.^ So when there’s morning shift, there’s also night shift. In other words, some companies are taking advantage of dividing shifts in order to sustain its round-the-clock operations, particularly in hospitals, police stations, fire stations, broadcast stations, newsrooms, and some business establishments such as BPO companies and convenience stores.

The advantage of working on a night shift is that you don’t need to deal with traffic, as well as the busy crowd of people on the streets. Also, you’re entitled to a time differential pay (the percentage rate, however, depends on the country you’re working in). But it has a lot of disadvantages too, concerning mostly with safety, health, and relationships. For starters, night shift workers are the common target of the bad guys. And then there’s the health risk caused by stress, lack of exercise, unhealthy food and lifestyle (from fast food, caffeine, and smoking), and sleep deprivation (due to the disruption of the body’s circadian rhythm). And at times, you’ll be working on weekends and holidays, meaning less bonding time with your family.

Night owls may have a hard time resetting their body clock, especially if they’re used to it in the long run. It’s like forcing yourself to use a new smartphone without familiarizing yourself with all of its features. Preparing your body for a change in circadian rhythm is necessary in order to avoid problems.


It was October 2, 2013, when I started my training at a BPO company in Makati. Considering how far my workplace is to my residence in the north, I wouldn’t mind accepting the offer since I badly need a job (well, at least after I was drawn to the booth during a job fair). And since I’m on the graveyard shift, I don’t have to worry about getting stuck in traffic and, at times, I don’t have to worry about missing the last train too (since MRT/LRT operations are until 10:00 PM that time). It only took me about an hour and a half to get there. And of course, since I’m applying as a customer service representative, I need to be prepared as well, both physically and emotionally.

At first, it’s kind of weird to go to work at night, since there are fewer people in the streets and most of the shops are closed… not to mention lack of transportation too. Upon reaching the building (where the training area is), I was a little tired so I took a seat. I almost fall asleep, considering that it’s already past 10:00 when I got there, but someone noticed me and asked if I’m all right. Of course, it feels kind of awkward since I’m not supposed to do that in the workplace, not even in the lobby.

All of the trainees, trainers, and even the security staff are speaking in English. I’m not surprised at all since they’re all supposed to speak in English as most BPOs strictly enforced EOP (English only policy) inside the premises, and this also extends anywhere inside the building, particularly in the elevator and restroom (this only applies to us call center employees).

During the orientation, there are a lot of rules and regulations we trainees are expected to follow. Of course, one of them is we have to speak English at all times, and we’re not allowed to fall asleep during the training and at work (but we’re allowed to stand up and do a few movements in order to combat sleepiness).

Everything went well in my first day of training, but not by the time I got home. I find it difficult to sleep during the day, and I tend to get up just as I was about to fall asleep. At this point, I feel frustrated since I really need to rest up for the following night.

Of course, I also need to comply with the requirements so we were given a day off just to prepare the following documents needed for employment. We also need to undergo the pre-employment medical exam, one of the requirements for employment. That was the time when I actually fainted during a blood test. They checked my blood pressure and it was below normal (below 90/60, I assume). I had to rest for a while until I can finally get up and walk.

A few weeks have passed and I’m starting to adjust to a graveyard shift lifestyle. I’m getting used to the strong smell of coffee and the not-so-bright lighting of the office building, as well as the extremely cold air conditioning and conversations in English. And of course, the sight of trainees watching TV (usually HBO or Star Movies) in the pantry or the lobby. While most of the shops are closed during the night, there are a few dining establishments (fast food chains and convenience stores) open 24/7. Of course, there’s the office pantry, but they’re usually closed on weekends and holidays, so you’ll be relying on fast food a lot (unfortunately). To be honest, I had an aversion for strong coffee as I tend to get jittery after drinking it (with a lot of sugar and some cream), but I really need caffeine to get through the night. So I stick to drinking tea and hot chocolate. Now come to think of it, I even tried having instant arroz caldo on my tumbler, since there’s hot water in the pantry too.

My communication skills are somewhat poor, but I managed to do well during the call simulation, applying what I learned during the training. Of course, there are times when I got nervous and did a lot of mistakes during the call simulation. Eventually, I passed the first part of training, which is the Global Communications Training. I was looking forward to the next part of the training, which is Product Specific Training.

Later on, I started having mixed emotions about continuing my call center training, but I went on anyway. From here on, it’s serious training and we’re supposed to do better at this one. I also get to sit in with some of the call center agents, and learned a few things when it comes to customer service.

And that’s where the stressful part begins, taking calls from customers. I don’t know, but I actually break down after a few calls and one of the coaches helped me calm down. Eventually, I’m getting used to handling irate customers and escalated calls, as well as being calm and cheerful despite having such rough moments. I can really do well in being friendly and respectful to the callers, but there are times when I feel like I’m going to scream and talk back at them for being rude. But of course, we’re not supposed to do that. It’s kind of difficult, to be honest.

Later on, the graveyard shift lifestyle and the stressful life of being a CSR is making me feel even more depressed. Sometimes, I couldn’t wait to finish my shift so I can feel the much-needed relief, yet I still find myself doing the same stressful job every night. Realizing that I wasn’t really happy with my job and I was close to being terminated (mostly due to my tardiness), I asked my coach for a little advice regarding the resignation, and she explained the process. Of course, there’s a possibility of rendering a few more days before I officially quit my job, so I decided to do just that. As soon as I handed my resignation letter, I knew I’m about to head back to being a freeter.

And that’s how my four-month stint at a BPO company ends. At least, I get to experience being a CSR on a graveyard shift. I don’t know if I’ll reconsider applying for the same job again, but then it’s decided that I’m officially done with it. Having experienced the struggles of being a call center agent, I truly had high respect for my friends (including my trainers, coaches, and team leaders) who are still in the industry.


I don’t know if I’ll ever appreciate this kind of life… I mean, working at nighttime and sleeping at daytime. Sometimes, I enjoy it. Sometimes, I don’t.  Maybe it’s because I find it difficult to adopt a night shift lifestyle. Yes, I may be a night owl in some way, but I’m still a morning person who is struggling with insomnia and falling asleep at bedtime, as well as adjusting my body’s circadian rhythm. I really need to work on resetting my body clock once I finally have a day job.

Then again, maybe I’m still open to working the night shift, but I don’t think I’ll be able to enjoy the daytime activities I loved the most. What a compromise. Well, this kind of lifestyle isn’t really suitable for me after all. Who knows, this kind of thinking might change… probably in a few years or so.

What It Means To Be Cool (And Look Cool)

Being cool is being your own self, not doing something that someone else is telling you to do.

Vanessa Hudgens

Coolness is a great quality to have, but not everyone is born with it. Either you’ll need to work hard to achieve that level of coolness you desire, or simply accept the fact that you’ll remain uncool forever.


For some, coolness is the behavioral, admirable kind of quality that they’re after, mostly from a person. It could be the way he acts, he behaves, or he dresses… anything that can be perceived as something “cool” in the eye of a person. Some people, however, may not look into the dark side of coolness, as long as they keep seeing the good qualities of the person they adore so much.

Of course, there are dark sides to being cool. For starters, there’s the possibility of some cool kids getting into trouble, such as alcohol and drug addiction, problems with friendships and romantic relationships, and criminal behavior.^ There’s also the possibility of being idolized by their peers and the tendency of being selective when it comes to making friends (and severing ties with not-so-cool ones). And there’s the feeling of belonging in the company of “cool” people.

But being cool is really “cool” if you’re actively pushing to be a role model to everybody, in a positive way. A person’s coolness is determined by his/her good intentions, which is a good way to influence others and for them to earn respect from everyone.


So what it means to be cool? Well, the term we used for admiration can also be used to describe the actions of some people that are deemed awesome, or for items that are popular, stylish, and cutting-edge (like gadgets or clothing). I don’t really understand what being cool is all about, but I’m pretty sure it had anything to do with aesthetics.

And speaking of aesthetics, the word “cool” is often used for outfits that are fashionably attractive or trendy… well, at least not to the point that it becomes too mainstream for it to be labeled as uncool. Of course, some of the coolest outfits are those involving layered outfits, especially the ones with hoodie jackets, knitted vests or blazers. And probably something that’s nerdy/geeky or preppy, maybe emo. Oh well, this isn’t only about how you dress up, but also how you look.

And going back, the word “cool” is commonly associated with popularity. As mentioned earlier, there’s the possibility of being idolized by some people, mostly due to your good qualities such as your looks, attitude, or ability. And by that, you are often seen as a role model (unless you’re the terrible kind). Or maybe, they thought you are cool because you look like one.

The word itself is ambiguous, but always remember that coolness should be used for good reasons. Cool or not, you must always set a good example to everyone so you’ll be greatly admired by everyone. And for an uncool person, who knows? Your good deeds may lead you to a path to coolness.


And switching back to the aesthetic side of coolness, you probably knew which outfit really looks cool on you, as well as how you look and how you act. Now here are some tips:

  • First, take a good look at yourself in the mirror. Okay, this may sound narcissistic, but that should help you determine which outfit suits your look. If you’re fine with having facial hair, then go on with it. Otherwise, you need to do something about it.
  • Second, your chosen outfit must be pleasing to the eye of the wearer. Just a simple mixing-and-matching won’t do, you need to consider color combinations and patterns, as well as the accessories you’ll be wearing with that outfit.
  • Third, so now you look kind of neat and you look good in your outfit of choice… now it’s time to refine your movements. It helps to keep yourself relaxed while walking and make sure to act appropriately. If you’re not sure how to do it, then try to do it naturally. But don’t force yourself to conform to other people’s movements.
  • Fourth, smile and be nice to everyone you meet. It adds up to your coolness and it makes you feel good inside too.
  • Last, but not the least, learn how to deal with awkward situations. Don’t overreact like you need to yell loud just to let them know you slipped. Try to gain composure and redeem yourself from this clumsiness.


And so, we already wrap up the ambiguous meaning of coolness. Whether it’s associated with behavior or looking good, it certainly is a term worth noting.

So what it means to be cool and look cool? Well, it’s the good quality in you that counts, and probably your good-looking outfit too.

A Balanced Life

Balance makes the world go round. Without it, everything is in disarray and that’s not a good sign.

Born under a zodiac sign Libra that represents balance (the scales), I know how important it is (for me) to keep things balanced, as much as possible. But of course, I tend to disregard this, as I didn’t think of such consequences, something that I might regret later in life.

So for this post, I’m going to share my thoughts about the importance of keeping your life balanced.


So what makes a balanced life?

A balanced life is a healthy and productive life. It’s like when you’re taking good care of yourself (like eating something healthy), and accomplishing all your goals in life without the stress and pressure (like doing important work). It is when you prioritize and schedule your tasks accordingly, as well as knowing what’s important and what’s not.

There are times when you’re too much focused on your work that you tend to forget your physical and emotional needs. You ended up getting stressed, just because you need to finish all of your tasks in a given time. And by neglecting your health, there’s a possibility that your body is giving up on you. Remember, you’re not a machine that operates 24/7, sometimes you need to take a break.

At times, you tend to dwell on your dark past that you forget to focus on doing things that will make you happy. As a result, you missed out on a lot of fun things that you could have enjoyed had it not been for your negative way of thinking. Conflicts (particularly personal) may also disrupt life’s balance depending on how you react to it. Like, when someone is disturbing the balance by means of an upsetting situation, you tend to lose focus on whatever thing you’re doing. A peaceful environment translates to a well-balanced life, meaning you can only do well without a disruptive moment.

So are you into workouts or are you planning to be a couch potato for the rest of your life? Do you like healthy food or unhealthy food? Are you willing to do anything just to satisfy yourself or do you just take time in doing the things you love? Or maybe you prefer ‘wants’ to ‘needs’? Sometimes, your preference(s) may lead you to an unbalanced life. Maybe you’re working too hard just to satisfy yourself without even looking at the consequences of your actions. And by that, you’re being reckless when it comes to your desires.

It’s important to focus not just on the external things such as work, relationship, and activities, but also the internal things (such as what’s inside your mind and body). It’s okay to work hard, for as long as you don’t exhaust yourself too much in the long run. It’s okay to fall in love with someone, as long as you’re not too absorbed in a series of dreamy, romantic thoughts and not paying attention to your emotional well-being.


Keeping things balanced is as simple as organizing everything in life. All you have to do is remember these tips:

  • Know your limits. Remember, you can only push yourself to do a certain amount of activities at a time, and nothing more than recommended. I understand that there are a lot of goals for you to fulfill (heck, there are even bucket lists of activities, places, and/or some items to buy) and you’re willing to work hard and save up just to achieve such goals in life. But overdoing it may put all of these goals to waste, something that you wouldn’t want in the end.
  • Schedule everything. A well-balanced life can be achieved through planning your activities in advance. Say, you are incredibly busy with your life that you don’t have much time for your hobbies. While you can always have time for work, make sure to have some for play too.
  • Stick to the plan. A little preparation may do the trick. Say that you wanted to save up for your future, then it’s necessary to prepare yourself for a little cost-cutting measure. Too many tasks? Then focus on the important (high priority) tasks first before anything else. Think you’re heading off the track? Check the list.
  • Think positively. You’ve been through a rough time lately, but that doesn’t mean you can always dwell on negative thoughts. Sometimes, the negative thoughts you have in mind may overpower your positive outlook in life. No matter what happens, make sure to have a positive outlook at all times because not all bad moments are really bad.
  • Motivate yourself. You can’t be demotivated forever, it’s like being cruel to yourself and missing out on a lot of opportunities. Motivation helps in keeping balance to your not-so-positive life, whether it’s work time or fun time. You’re empowering yourself to do something better.


Remember, a life that’s balanced is a life that’s healthy. There may be a lot of factors that can affect your life’s balance, but there is a way to keep things in order… even if it’s a complete mess, to begin with.

A healthy, productive, and stress-free life. That’s what balance is for. You simply need to breathe in and feel relaxed as you go through the usual tasks with a clear mind and a cupful of motivation. Yup, that’s how the way it goes.


  • Tanjeloff, Jasmin. “How to Create a Balanced Life: 9 Tips to Feel Calm and Grounded.” Tiny Buddha. N.p., 11 Jan. 2015. Web. 03 Oct. 2017. ^

A Prank Goes Overboard

Pranks can be entertaining if it doesn’t hurt anybody, right?

Many years ago, my friends are much into pranks, and I don’t have a problem with it. However, not all of their pranks are funny, sometimes it ended up in a not-so-good manner that the fun part ends. You can always say that a simple prank will always be a simple prank until something else happens.


Pranks are something to laugh or cringe about. It can be a simple practical joke or a hardcore one that may cause injuries or may cost you your friendship with the person you played a prank at. Just so you know, it is supposed to be a nonviolent way of having fun, but it’s considered bullying if it involves violence or cruelty, and/or if it’s done in a not-so-good manner.

Okay, so what is the actual definition of the word prank? The word prank is synonymous with playing tricks/practical jokes on someone and ends up with a good laugh. It is always attributed to mischief or a wicked deed, but it is meant to be a lighthearted way of surprising someone or make a person feel humbled or foolish, but not victimized or humiliated.^

But there are some people who would use this as an opportunity to victimize people, inducing fear or rage to their victims. The victims, in response, may either retaliate or suffer from a mix of depression, fear, or frustration over a mean prank. The worst case of response can be really deadly.

I don’t mean to be a killjoy when it comes to these kinds of things. It’s just that some people tend to overdo it at times, and it isn’t really nice at all.


What happens when a prank goes overboard?

  • There’s a possibility of an accident–Sometimes, people do outrageous pranks that may cause accidents to pranksters and/or their victims. Since pranks are usually done with a surprise attack, there’s a possibility of an accident if the person executing the prank isn’t careful.
  • It becomes a case of bullying–If it’s done cruelly, it automatically becomes bullying. And bullying is no fun.
  • It ends up in violence–If the victim didn’t like what the prankster did to him/her, then there’s a possibility of a violent retaliation. It could be a brawl between a prankster and a victim, or a victim pulling a gun at the prankster.
  • It may end up in a legal case–If the prank ends up in an accident that leads to a victim’s disability or death, there’s a chance that the victim’s family may file a charge against the pranksters.
  • You may be liable for damage to property–Some pranks may end up in arson and property damage, prompting the owner/s to make the pranksters pay for all the damages the prank has caused.
  • You may be liable for such disruptions–Well, there are some pranks that may cause alarm to some people in the vicinity. Bomb jokes, gun toting folks (using fake guns), fake threats, etc., may cause a great deal of commotion that these are no longer considered as pranks, but a case of disturbance that may end up in a legal case against the perpetrator.
  • It may cost you your future–Take note of this. If a prank goes wrong and involves a series of unfortunate incidents such as arson, property damage or the death of a victim, then there’s a chance that these pranksters may get more than a simple punishment. For students, it may be a suspension or an expulsion, depending on the gravity of their actions. For seniors, it means being barred from attending school graduation. As for the rest, it’s criminal liability. Whatever it is, your future is tainted.


All right, so there are some cases where a prank goes overboard. It’s a great deal of trouble to get yourself involved in doing outrageous pranks against a potential victim, but you’re in a bigger trouble if your pranks involve someone getting hurt or seriously injured… or worse, sustain life threatening injuries that may lead to death. Of course, you’re always responsible for your actions, so don’t even think of pulling a prank on someone and run off when things go wrong and leave your victim/s in a great deal of pain.

Not all pranks are bad. But of course, you certainly knew better than to do outrageous things that may cause harm or trouble.